You can't hear me speak 'Cause I am mute I hide too many things I need a place to hope I need your help to hope again You see a laughing boy This is not true - only a mirage I can't conceal my fear I have to be sincere [Chorus:] There is no way to forget I broke your heart when I ran away You didn't know what to do I was only a stupid boy When I look back now I never felt so bad To know that I've hurt you Is worse than to break Is worse than everything Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene I'm so afraid of myself I'm so afraid of being here I say sorry but it's not enough I'm so afraid of losing my thoughts [Eldron, August 2001]