I can feel the foul breath of loneliness Creep through my lungs when the city dies At three in the morning I want to sleep, to forget A place that is so cruel and tainted Even dreams feel like long dull needles Being driven into my head. But these pills Won't stop my numbing respite from fading As I wake up, harsh and painful memories Converge in my head all at once. My throat burns As I try to hold back tears Writhing in this grotesque agony Sorrow has stained everything around me... My sheets... my clothes... it always seems to find me I feel like I am phantoming through life Each moment a lifeless drug-hazed, dream-fugue I want to go away, to be forgotten But every last drop of hope Has been drained from my eyes I am lost in these silent, abandoned suburbs Surrendering to monotony I know that I can never get away...