I said it with my hand I said it with my hand over my mouth So you wouldn't see That ugly part of me And I wish I wouldn't break down around The three weeks I had clean And I wish I wouldn't break down again And again and again, no, no 'Cause it's been three long years But feels more like ten But I'm going home, oh no There's an old me there, too And I don't wanna care anymore But I feel like I can't No, I won't, no, I can't No, I won't, no, I can't, no, no, no And I wish I wouldn't break down around The three weeks I had straight And I wish I wouldn't break down around The two weeks I had ♪ 'Cause I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York 'Cause I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York But I feel like I am, no, I won't No, I can't, no, I won't, no, no, no 'Cause I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York But I feel like I could, no, I won't No, I can't, no, I won't, no, no I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die in New York I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die