Got a lot on my plate, it keeps me awake
Steady dodging the hate, i'm tryna stay
Ready for any mistake, i'll probably make
Hoping i learn a little something from these darkest of days
Cause see my soul is at stake, i been acting different
Fighting demons, my family told me i'm acting distant
To be honest, i see it too, and it's getting scary
Cause i can't seem to tell the real from the imaginary
My adversary my own mind
Guess i been blind to this side of myself the whole time
This slow rhyme is the only thing keeping me sane
Cause if you too afraid to dream, then you sleeping in vain
Hard times got me tearing up
But if i lose myself i know you'll find me
Sometimes i feel like giving up
But when i see your face it reminds me that i'm not alone
Ever look in the mirror and see a stranger?
As my vision gets clearer i see the danger in what i've been taught, I feel the anger
It's like i been caught between the riptides
I took a while to realize
How i been changing, the type of man i been turning into
The type of man that's been burning your fuel
The type of of man who don't deserve your patience, uh
I know you don't owe me no conversation
So let me do the talking, let me prove
That i'll do you justice
Let me try and be that dude you fuck with
Cause honestly i miss him too, it hurts me to say this
But I can't hide it if it's true, no time for missing you
Cause you never left, i'm thankful but I don't get it
I wrote this letter, couldn't feel it if i just read it
So i wrote this song, to tell you i'm wrong
And tell you i'm back for good, you've waited too long
Hard times got me tearing up
But if i lose myself i know you'll find me
Sometimes i feel like giving up
But when i see your face it reminds me
That i'm not alone