Sometimes when i take a step back and look at my life It seems like a cycle repeating itself over and over With loss, stress, hunger and hopelessness All building up to a brief moment of triumph That seems to grow briefer with every repetiton And after that moment fades away I realize I haven't undergone any great transformation I'm left hopeless and disappointed in myself for failing to Live up to my own expectations which is where the cycle repeats Does it just go on forever? The light has gone and I can't move on When I look inside I know I have myself to blame I see the hurt in their eyes all the same A short revival and then the crash And thus the cycle repeats for me at last A brief reprisal before the end And thus the cycle begins for me again The taste-once sweet-has lost allure to me There's a beast inside, I keep it locked up far away But it always escapes and repays And then the lights fall dim and the world grows colder Victim of a manmade misery And with a manic grin it derives my torture Ripping at the seams of victory A short revival and then the crash And thus the cycle repeats for me at last A brief reprisal before the end And thus the cycle begins for me again