I don't recognize myself It's surreal surely I'm thinking of somebody else I don't think I look like the front-woman of a band But that's where I am These people on my shoulders Don't have my best intentions in mind I was just trying to get through the workday Without crying in the backroom You never thought I was trying my best I've never thought I was trying my best Do you want to be in my movie Is that the only way you'll see how you've affected me You never thought that I was trying my best I'm losing the weight of hating my body Shame or guilt or maybe I was ill So many red flags have me feeling unlucky But that's where I've been These people on my shoulders Don't have my best interest in mind I was just trying to get through the party Without crying in the bathroom