Lately I need regular proof that I'm still alive In my chest, I lack a beating heart The more I try to keep myself together The more I seem to fall apart I doubt you'd survive one night in my mind It is dark outside but no sleep in sight I'm in need of a soothing touch But I'm alone, think and drink too much All the problems with myself All the problems with this world Scream so loud I can't find a way out Out of my head, off my bed, off my fucking knees Out of this disease But you know me I won't admit defeat