I cut back one drug and excess on another
And it's always by myself
But when my friends are here to distract me from me
It usually seems to help
But I guess that's just as well
That I'm here all by myself
And nothing seems to help
When my thoughts reside in hell
You know you control me
And you speak through my head from your metal lips
And you'll tell me what you think might help myself
I thought you might know me
Of course, not quite entirely
But just enough to know I really needed your help
And the stone might break the glass
And we'll wait for it to pass
Just like snow-covered grass
But I think it's time to grasp
This motivation that I lack
And I'll play the victim
And I'll play the mediator
Because that's how I solved my problems as a child
And you'll be complaining
How my problems are not what I thought they were
And I'll try my very best to force a smile
And I'll think the night away
Yeah, I'll think the night away
Because once I'm in my head, I can't escape
So I'll drink the night away
Yeah, I'll drink the night away
And I'll wonder if I'll ever be okay
And I know it sounds so blue
But I wouldn't be here without you
I'll keep telling myself I won't kill myself
Just as long as I have my fingers
But my wishes, oh, they outweigh my wish sticks
You knew all too well I wouldn't take care of myself
But you could've leaded the right direction
And it shows that that was something I was missing
Now you want me dead so get out of my head
It was you that kept me breathing
I was confident that you were here to stay
Now I'll click refresh 'til my face turns red
And I'm bleeding out my eyelids
Just hoping
Just wishing
For change