I am sorry The alprazolam rejects me Please just pick up the phone, things are not that ugly We're alright, im okay Translucency to reluctant faith That everything wont be okay But how long would it take for myself to suffocate? A black hole prescription; an addiction In hopes that things will get better A black hole prescription; An addiction Things are not getting any better I'm sorry mother, i never ever wanted this But now i so goddamn close to pulling a sid vicious I sold my heart to the tables, let the alcohol win I swear i never ever ever, meant for this I should have grit my teeth, kept it together for the kid But these oxys always got me spitting shit You told me its with life, you learn to live With your body exposed, perpetuate oblivion And i know, it gets you off With my hands around your throat Perpetual failing, consistently bleeding Over and over again What does it mean this time? Does it mean you actually love me? Was it just a fix? So you're not like me So goddamn lonely