It's been 7 or 8 long years Since I gave up punching myself in the face to save my fears And I have no lasting memories I've spent them all [?] So kick me in the kidneys, really hard I'm gonna write my name in blood in the backyard Oh I'm terrified when it comes to make a muscle bound man of me I'll be as sober as a high court judge who that gives my penalty I'll be as happy as an unhappy person can actually be Or a leper uninvited from the leper colony And have you seen a smile look like a frown Be sure to piss on it before you turn it down How does it feel to feel like you still feel still And how does it feel to feel like you still feel real Kick me in the kidneys, really hard I'm gonna write my name in blood in the backyard