There won't be a next time What did it cost myself to become the greater good I've tried to write it all out to spell my thoughts out in blood Lifetime medication overwhelmed with no sedation, self separation It's so funny you were scarier at night The blade I carry holding all the weight of every life I've chosen not to take, just push me one more time I'm treading on the snake that's culling the kind Too terrified to die Too scared to try Dug my nails into my palms and cried Spent my whole life with both arms tied behind my back And now the chain snaps I hope your legs can run faster than you run your mouth I'm so close to the edge now, you're gonna find out Now only at the end do you understand Blacked out Face down can't make a sound left my eyes gouged with a smile Tapped out Drowning in my own blood bleeding out fast on the tile So tell me who hurt you Convinced you of your virtue Psychosomatic made up of your bad habits The silver lining fades to gray You'll never know Never know what it's like Watching your back Watching the exits for the threats in your mind I chose not to fight It followed my whole life On the defensive, ill intentions metastasized There won't be a next time Taking every ounce of self-control to keep you alive