Tell me do you know what it's like?
To be freezing through the night
See your breath in the air and the water turn to ice
You don't know what it's like
In a couple few years now your gripping on a knife
What's life? that's the question
Dealing with depression
Every single day you wake up and you're stressing
Drowning in your sweat for the drugs your dependent
Need a lil something just to clear your damn mind up
Negative 30 getting frostbite turning off the heat
For my brother and mama and it make it hard to sleep
And you filled me with my trauma and it made me feel weak
But mama didn't raise no bitch
What the fuck you think it is? when my brother load a clip
And he put the fucking barrel to your head he would've shot you
I could see it in his fucking eyes he would of dropped you
I hope that my career comes back and it haunts you
I'll never back down
I can hear the sound of you screaming at my mama
If you ever come around
Ima do what my brother didn't do that one day
I don't have the balls to kill nobody but for you, I may
I don't give a fuck I'll put a bullet in a fucking K
Call me dead shot when I'm blowing out your fucking brains
Leave you wrapped up in a tarp in the woods
Ima bury all the evidence and hide it real good yeah
I don't wanna go back
I'm getting the flashbacks
Made my fucking soul black
Cut my fucking throat back
I ain't never showed that
Really had to hold back
I don't wanna go back
I don't wanna go back
I don't wanna go back I'm getting the flashbacks
To the fucking childhood that made my fucking soul black
Make me wanna cut my fucking throat back
I ain't never showed that
Suicide attempts I really had to fucking hold back
Looking at the blood stains coming out of my veins
Thinking I'm a little fucked up inside my brain
Tryna numb up my pain tryna live another day
Tryna leave my mark up on this bitch before I fade away
Got it in my fucking name Kami going out with a bang
I apologize if you ain't really getting my slang
Cuz nobody can relate to the pain that I take
You can claim that it's fake
You can claim that I'm insane
But I'm sane I'm the same no doubt
Making money while I'm pissing and I check the damn amount
Had to get a couple demons out my mind and get some help
Never did it for the clout never did it for the wealth
I'm just tryna make a change in this game that I partake in
Never did too good in school I lack participation
All the negativity around reciprocating
Tryna change the process of this damn reciprocation
Tryna spread some peace but I do it in the silence
Tryna end the evil in this world and kill the violence
Spreading my opinion I been feeling so righteous
Living in a life where I been feeling so lifeless