Your call has been forwarded
To an automated voice message system
Got like 30 missed calls on my phone my family mourning
Didn't listen to warnings looking back I did it
And I wish I made a call to your phone and took a minute
Out of my life to ask you if you're alright
Heading to light I guess you didn't wanna fight
Deep down I know you tired and I know that you tried
Even though you're gone it's like I feel you by my side
I gotta lie and say I'm fine
I been in my mind
Really got me thinking how you'll never see a lot
Nah you'll never meet my kids
Won't be at my graduation life is such a bitch
I know you in heaven waiting save another spot
I hope I make you proud when I make it to the top
I promise that I'll never look back and never stop
Never waste a minute of my time and watch the clock
I tell myself that you're alive even though I know your not
Yeah I guess I'm in denial
Shit I guess I'm in denial
You could say I'm in denial
You didn't understand what my passion was for music
Now to talk to you that's how I gotta use it
I would tell you it's my job then you'd tell me that I'm stupid
Even though we didn't agree on many things
I know the love was still there I know you cared
Got me sending prayers
Every time your health is getting worse I'm getting scared
Cuz I'm aware of what could happen even though I had my doubts
Waking up to bad news what is this about the amount
Of regret that I got is really ripping me apart
Tryna find myself some freedom putting pain within my art
From the heart that's how I write it, pain when I recite it
All my fucking vices coming back I'm tryna fight it
But I'm getting sick of fighting tryna find my strength
Crying through the night 5 am and I'm awake
I wear a smile but it's fake I'm asking god why you were taken
I can barely take it and I really fucking hate it
Go into your room and it doesn't feel the same
Everywhere I look I see your name and my chest it fills with pain
And it never goes away
Try to tell myself that everybody got their fate
But it really feels fake
Looking at your pictures
Everything I do I hope it meets with all your wishes
And I wish I wasn't distant nowadays I hate the distance
Took your life for granted then you're taken in an instant
Now I gotta let you rest
I really fucking miss you
I wish you would come back