How should I
Recover
From all the times I said I'd be your soldier
And now it's over
And I got older
I'm still not sober, but
Life moves like a circus
Dark below the surface
Pain so unpredictable
And that's what makes me nervous
Cause nothing's ever certain
Roll one up and burn it
Hit me up with nonsense
Bitch your bullshit don't concern me
Who's gone pay for the damages
Replace all these bandages
Make the same mistake don't think I ever learn still need reassurance but
I swear to god I thought handled it
Think it's time I abandon ship
Always struggle with abandonment
Self-prescribing smoking cannabis
In this dark room while it's candle lit
Stand still
Stand still
Never felt guilt like this
From the things I did
I know you feel it in your chest
Probably can't get no rest
Probably sitting in your head
Dead
I know I fucked up real bad
Lost the best thing I had
Wish I could take it all back
Wish I could take it all back
Life moves like a circus
Dark below the surface
Pain so unpredictable
And that's what makes me nervous
Cause nothing's ever certain
Roll one up and burn it
Hit me up with nonsense
Bitch your bullshit don't concern me
Life moves like a circus
Dark below the surface
Pain so unpredictable
And that's what makes me nervous
Cause nothing's ever certain
Roll one up and burn it
Hit me up with nonsense
Bitch your bullshit don't concern me