Angus carried my bike up the stairs As I stood at the bottom and I'm not sure if I just stared Or if I thanked him There's a high chance that I'm feeling broken hearted Angus packed my suitcase for me As I felt quite stressed out Since I've lost Calliope I can't get a breath out And I've heard my father's angry I haven't emailed But I feel so conflicted Because we haven't spoken in sixteen years!! We haven't spoken in sixteen years! I just sit and do the crossword But, I'm feeling guilty There are so many books to read And Ella's whimpering Should I go for a bike ride or should we walk I am trying not to live my life based on shoulds Being an extra in Caleb's show Is my big acting break And I fell in love again But I don't feel the joy it takes Because I've heard he's sleeping in the basement Still I feel so conflicted I met my father by the sea Yet, I feel so conflicted Because you had nothing to say to me You had nothing to say to me Angus managed the recipe job But, I miss the way we joked And feel like a slob There's a frog inside my throat And if someday you wake up down there Take me out to see a film Court me like you weren't my lover Since the beginning I want to feel ecstasy Still I miss the softness of your skin But, I feel so conflicted Because we hadn't met in sixteen years And you had nothing to say to me I always thought you would be there I always thought you would be there