I had a vision of myself A turd spinning in flushing water Not going down I think of myself As not going down And maybe it's bad To want to go down But if i could go somewhere At least it'd be a sort of conviction If i could just keep a commitment Maybe i'd be happier If i could just go down And not always have such a conniption Every time i make a commitment Maybe i'd be happier Maybe i'd be happier If i could go down I had a premonition About my next life I was a peanut And someone cracked me open But they didn't eat me I wanna get ate 'Cause if i could just be ate At least then i'd be useful to someone Instead i'm just a peanut all rotten Sitting here and catching dust If i could just be ate At least someone might say i was worthy And who would wanna nurse all this worry If someone would swallow you I wish someone would swallow me Then i could go down And take a peek at your insides All red and brown And come out the outside And be a turd spinning In flushing water I wanna go down 'Cause if i could go somewhere At least it'd be a sort of conviction If i could just keep a commitment Maybe i'd be happier But i'll never go down 'Cause man that would just be way too easy I'll never kill myself But live forever I'll live forever Then maybe i'd be happier