I go out walking after twilight Talking To the memories of all I've ever known But you can't find me I'm a million miles from midnight I'm a blues child baby, born to be alone I'm just a loaded gun I know I'm not the only one Shooting straight at the sun I know I'm not the only one Jesus Christ and a heart attack Suffering to be loved, I relate to that Well, maybe you don't know what you have Oh, and someday, I'm gonna take it back I love every season, even hurricane I'm needing just to sit still I know there's nowhere, nowhere to run And maybe there's an answer? I'm a Pisces, not a Cancer I wish I could be there for you, baby But I'm just too much I'm just a loaded gun I know I'm not the only one Pointed straight at the sun I know I'm not the only one Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself And I crucify myself Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh