Let me dissipate, into violent distortion The pacifying taste of blood and the sulfur With pale knuckles, comes a skyline Bruise stutter in forms, of bleak and desperate hues Grit teeth, to display dissatisfaction I felt your spirit shift it showed me I am at fault A failure by choice, I am what I manifest Spinning lead, when will it disperse in my head? Force it's course to a state of reason Force it's course, in which I cease to be Say if you met me now? What could I even say? Rewired and rearranged, chemical disarray Click, click, click, click, click, boom Say if I met you now? What could you even say? Selfless now selfish with a different face How's all this? Your "predetermined fate"? Let me dissipate, let me dissipate I now know why we are like this, fallen in love with our vices I've forcefully dehisced the wound to remind me what not to do I cannot fall for this I cannot fall for the vice and I cannot fall for you Evade the feeling I was never good enough But that's only changing the fact to fiction Evade the feeling I was never good enough But that's only lying by omission I met with death in a bathroom stall Dripping with blood like kerosene doused The shattered lens of intoxication Brought on by the bitter taste of you How could you ever love me, I'm still fucking nothing How could you ever love me, I'm still fucking nothing