I would've called you twice as much Told you I loved you just because Re-listened to stories that you enjoyed Even if just to hear your voice I would've held you twice as hard Saved all your letters and Holiday cards Recorded you sing on my birthday So I could still hear you say my name There's so much I would've done So much I'm missing If only I'd have known It'd be our last Christmas You taught me to drive, open champagne To fill up the car when it reached halfway Held me in your arms to heal my broken heart But in all your advice, we never talked 'bout this part And the words "letting go" fill me with regret That I wasn't there to share your last breath How much I wish we had one more day To laugh, cry, and tell you that I'll be okay There's so much I would've done So much I'm missing If only I'd have known it'd be Our last Christmas I hope you hear me when I'm praying As I hold on to your old sweater And I hope the days I don't believe in anything Don't mean a second chance to see you's lost to me forever I hope you hear me say, "Goodbye" Thank you for all that you have done Oh there's so much that I wish for But the greatest gift you taught me is There's nothing that I cannot overcome I know I can't go back And do things different So I hold you in my heart All that I'm missing Still I wish I would've known If only I'd have known It'd be our last Christmas