I got no time
For a co sign
I would just rather my credit be better
I got these bills that
I can't get ahead of
Live my life alone
Or be dead as a debtor
I sweat and I shed a
Thousand tears
Then bled a - river
Not to give a single fuck and
Live a life like I'm invincible
That wasn't smart
I'm paying for that
But only in part
Still let the principle
Hang in the balance
The price of my vices
My anger and violence
I try to contain
Everyday it's a challenge
To use it as ammo
And stay with my talents
The music to channel
And start in the rage
It finds a way deep in my
Heart in stays
So I bleed it out
Every bar on the page
But honestly it's
Getting harder with age
My old records have a lot
Of things that I wouldn't say
In my current state
And I'm gonna pay
Truth is he's unwanted by most
Ruthlessly
I'm being haunted by ghosts
If you could see dead people
Honestly though
Would you just eat karma
Or wanna see hope
Is this what it's like
At the end of a rope
Past and future
Suspended in both
A place where your dreams
End up bended and broke
Woke to this fear and resentment
And both
Are continuing swinging
On this never ending unhinging
Old Pendulum woah
Can I still get my own engine to go
I know that every December is cold
This is the road- it took its toll
I fought it all from 11 years old
Seems like I finally come to a halt
I'm left with nothing and nowhere to go
I need the faith I need the strength
I'm looking deep to somewhere in my soul
There's no escape
I gotta face what I gotta face
Question myself am I up to the task
The hatred of men
I'm pacing again cause I seen the snakes
And I'm cutting the grass
I came to far to stay stuck in the past
It turned to nada
Yeah nothing can last
But I'm survivor
And I'm coming back to scrap
Till I kick the bucket at last
And that's what I have
That none could take
Some would break
I would not
I could just let myself
Get myself
One more day
Today's the one
The days begun
I have a shot
And It's all I got
I got a chance
To raise my son
I been redeemed
In way more ways than one
I had some dream
And they've become
Really it's been an amazing run
So as I set this stage for one
More time
Before my days are done
Walking this fateful course
I just wanna say that I'm
Grateful for it
The faith support
The hatred toward it
Warriors fall down
But they push forward
Ever since I was 9
I pen some rhymes
And I would tape record it
My life has never been easy
It's been a beautiful struggle
I just never stop believing
And I try to do what you love to
Our lives will never be easy
They're always a beautiful struggle
I promise that you can get through it
As long as you do what you love to