I am not the man I thought I was I have tied a weight to my ankle bones Now I take my wrongs to Davey Jones And you can find a man with a better soul I don't ever want to see a face like that So I've left my clothes on the river bank I don't want to face you with a heavy head I've taken my body to the river bed Sinking underwater Fighting like a feather Slipping underneath the world This weight upon my shoulders Crushing all my hopes It's thirteen times the strength Of anything I felt on earth I am not the man I thought I was Always let you down when you need me most I am an American loading my gun Pushing little children with plastic ones