Nudged awake by gentle sun Abundant time before my shift I roll over, back to bed Then wake up at 2:06 Force myself into a costume Then I stumble to my shoes I'm a dumpster fire, I'll Try to keep away from you Do my obligations truly exist If I'm 200 miles away or If I'm gone a couple days And is it really so unhealthy to live Just to make it to these weekends Where I do nothing but pretend I'm not blowing off my future That I'm not a total loser I got plenty of excuses You won't ever know I'm mostly useless And I always try to change It only lasts about a day And praise, it only makes me Stay the same And when I look at you The way you never catch a break I'll always be a child I'll never not be late I spend so much time at colleges That aren't even mine All my savings take the form of Instruments I shouldn't buy Please don't ask me to explain Because I can't Everything I do is so insanely backwards And my life's a downward slant