Every winter it's the same fear; I'm gonna be alone on christmas this year. And though i think your heart is Sincere, i know i don't really belong here. I sense their glares, and i feel unprepared. I'm afraid to say anything, Cause i'm not sure that they'll know what i mean. I want to be here with your family, Instead i'm packing up my things to leave. My heart is running on the cold air, They say that i spend too much time with you, but i don't listen. Feel like i'm in high school again. It's reflected in the concepts they share. I might be there, but i don't see where. I'm far away mentally, cause i don't think they want to hear from me. I want to be part of my family, instead i'm sitting here silently. I'm afraid to say anything, Cause i don't know if they care what i think. I want to be loved by somebody, instead i push them all away from me.