The voltage in my blood and in my skin Crackles and erodes clouded reticence The pressure in my skull makes it hard to think But I won't let tonight become where I've been If I could keep my memories Away from the dread and anxiety (Who would I be?) I want to live, I want to feel I'm tired of feeling unreal (I'm more than this) I want to stay, but I'm afraid I don't want the safety to go away (But anyway) I am alive I'm here tonight The movement in my chest, I can't explain A frequency like death without any pain My skin is held intact by the lightest wind Is this what it's like to be alive again? If I could stay a certain way, if I could feel every day (I'd fall apart) If I could have a different life, could I look myself in the eye? (Would I know why?) I want to stay, but I'm afraid I don't want the safety to go away (But anyway) I close my eyes And dream of light "Whatever... I think that's everything... Okay, let's see if any of that was worth keeping."