Excuse my manners, normally I'm better But I've been dragged through the fire Torn and weathered, pieced back together And not much left to admire I've been tryin, honestly I'm dying Keeping my head on straight Stuck on auto, blink and breathe and swallow Keep it up until I wake The killing time, Lorazepam, borderline Suicide, I've never been less sure Man overboard Friends expired, sympathies are tired Even those who try to persist Are few and seldom, succumbing to boredom And I don't blame em a bit I was better, tired of being weathered But the latter got the better of me Pick my poison, poise and make a choice And I rejoice into nihility Maybe I should say before I'm done This isn't all that it's cracked up to be This is not the way it's meant to go But nothing goes the way it's supposed to be And I am here, and I will persevere And still I fear, the worst is to appear The idle thought, is shifting into gear The loudest sound, is ringing in my ears, Oh Maybe I'm just buying time Until the final time I try The killing time, K chloride on my mind Tired eyes, I've never been so sure, sure Send me overboard