Did you think I'd ever leave?
Did you think that you would just fall into complacency?
Did you think that you ever held any agency?
Did you think that I would fall so gracelessly?
My mind's playing tricks on me
It keeps on showing me the things I could've been
Like someone who adores duality (do you hear me?)
Instead, I just sit and practice apathy
My mind's playing tricks on me
Bringing into question the definition of sanity
And what really constitutes as agony (do you fear me?)
My coping mechanisms keep on failing me
I've kept myself at bay for so damn long (you're not strong)
So now I think it's time for the devil's song
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I remember one short line
It went "One will turn to two, will turn to five"
It seems I always knew that they would multiply (just die)
So why do I insist on keeping up these lies?
Yeah, don't put your trust in me
And don't confuse my blinding weakness for gallantry
The truth is everything I do is cowardly (you will bleed)
Stuck behind a thin veneer of neutrality
Why do I lock myself inside my mind? (Without pride)
When that's exactly where these bad thoughts hide (just die)
Why do I keep on lying, when deep down I know that this isn't right?
A good devil masquerades out in the light
Please cease this feeling disease
This agony feels so clearly
Please, don't fear me
Please, it's stinging
Please, it's killing me
Reach dry heaving creeps sincerely
I wish I could forget all about it
But I know that the evil inside's what's keeping me grounded
It's killing me to know that my heart is in two
But my anger won't subside if I keep pretending I hate you
My mind won't heal if you're not real
This pain I feel can't be concealed
The truth in me will be revealed
And so, I yield