Curse my heart it burns from an apathetic flame Crushing all my bones Teach me how to feel nothing, no pain As desolate as I am I still refuse my death I am your king I am your God I am the flame that won't burn out I am the light I am the way I am the alpha, omega and end We can't keep going on Acting like nothing's wrong Praying to find the will Praying that prayer is real How does it feel Slaughtering innocent killing their young as we don't see no wrong as we drop a new bomb New day new age NEW Nauseous... and lifeless... The plot sickens and our words undress the truth Disgusting... self righteous Men lay their lives on the line for a bastard in charge Self loathing... stop feeling Surrender the memories rooted inside Breathing... Stop breathing End all of the pain and stop living No You never haunted You never haunted me in my sleep at night But I always saw you I always saw you the second I opened my eyes I I always stumbled I always stumbled on my best intentions for you Day by day I crawl Through a weeping forest of insidious regret Laid out in stone Teach you how to feel nothing, no pain As desolate as I am I still refuse my death FUCK I have lived for way too long to see no point in life at all BUT I STILL STAND HERE When you thought you could just up and go, run away from me