I slowly disappear in the darkness of a hotel room While the pills are last resort that gets me through I can't imagine accepting the truth It's no better here, I went to the hell and back I am afraid of who I might become When fear and anger will replace the memories I'll close the door and draw a line I'll paint the walls in colors Colors of the pain I keep inside No grave is gonna hold me down No river I can drown in I failed to find another way around 'Cause I've tried so many times What I fail to realize, hell won't let me in 'Cause hell is no match for my suffering Why am I awake again And surrounded by people I swore not to trust anymore? I don't belong here outside But there's nobody, nobody home There's nobody home Sidelined, I am battered and broken I don't want any of this shit anymore When you treat a man like an animal He becomes an animal ♪ No grave is gonna hold me down No river I can drown in I failed to find another way around 'Cause I've tried so many times What I fail to realize, hell won't let me in 'Cause hell is no match for my suffering