I've been meditating I've been praying that I find my
Self because in the sin I've been lost I'm
Running out of options and
I've been conversating with angels when I'm unconscious
Telling me I got this to help escape my monsters
Danger creeps impatiently waiting to take me hostage
Overthinking often don't even get me started
Anyone around me long enough can see my problems
I try my best to hide it but that doesn't seem to solve it
Off the deep end but floating back to the top and I've been
Overthinking about the things I can't change
So absurd I'm acting, I understand
Still I stand so uncertain
Why it's moving so fast can't grasp it
Head is spinning, constellations circling around me
I'm unconscious if I'm honest I'm just kinda feeling nauseous
And instead of being optimistic I just end up drowning
In my thoughts and yeah my oxygen is lost again
I'm concentrating
On what not to do
And how to change myself
But then thoughts can make you lose and I've been losing to myself
And I've been counting off the days
Where I fail at resolution
And temporary happiness is not a substitution
For God's unfailing love
And we got some failing love
Inside our life and we all look for different things to cheer us up
Well let me break the disappointing news, it's never gonna happen
We're mistaking happiness for a distraction
And that's me being vulnerable
Yeah, that's me being vulnerable
Yeah that's me being vulnerable
I buy promotion with money I know that won't last
Just to pop up on your feed so you can scroll past
I spend hundreds of dollars making this music
When I know nobody's gonna be listening but my whole class
I constantly need people to tell me how much they love me
I constantly get jealous of people that are above me
Unconsciously I beg for attention throughout my music
Saying "I don't care bout what you think" cause maybe then you'll think more of me
Spend all my time in the studio and none with my family
I guess I'm trying to become everything I know I can be
Writing songs about the wisdom that I take for granted
And it seems as if I never use the knowledge that I'm handed
Spend all my time in the studio and none with my brother
Well you could call it a studio but it's just some covers
And pillows that I hung on the wall with a thumbtack
Trying to make it soundproof but they fall off to a love tap
Care too much about aesthetics, not enough about
Serving God and really that's what everything's about
So pathetic that I count the views and likes and I get stuck in monetizing
Instead of trying to spread the Gospel out
My problems seem a lot bigger now that I can't disguise it
Difference is I got a lot of hope and a different mindset
I set reminders on my phone to pray to God but will I really feel connection
If I have to be reminded? I'm just Vulnerable
Yeah, that's me being vulnerable
Yeah that's me being vulnerable
I'm just being vulnerable
And that's me being vulnerable
That's me being vulnerable