You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
You smelt like roses, I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
This ain't a fucking hit
I just need to vent
It's February 25th another week just went
It's been intense
I needa get this album ready,
Would be out already but I'm stuck inside a deep descent
Even friends ask how long I'm going sober for
Ever since the breakup I don't know no more
I don't even know who I know no more
I ain't in the know no more
That's all I know and I don't need to know know more no no more
I feel alone and I'm afraid of change
But just as afraid if everything were to stay the same
Disgusted sick I bathe in shame
Fuck this shit
I love my gift but hate my brain
I'm, overwhelmed roaming through this lonely realm
Time will only tell if my family and friends know me well
A couple mates are probably hoping that I don't excel
If you ain't got respect for the sober shell you can go to hell
You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
Now your gone every night i gotta stay distracted
That's why I'm making all these tracks it's so my brain is active
I've been trynna make the greatest tracklist
But it's hard when it feels like I'm fucking covered in hater magnets
I still dream of you when it's clear as day
I try to drink the fear away but it's hear to stay
It's no surprise the very second I close my eyes
All my omens rise I swear to god I could hear you say
Off you go
Enjoy the show
Enjoy the sluts
Enjoy the road
Enjoy the bucks
Enjoy the load of pointless stuff
Enjoy the drugs
Enjoy the rush
Avoid the lows
Yeah, that's what I always do
Guess you always knew
Even when I had a small breakthrough
Every plan of staying sober would fall straight through
Still I promise it would all change soon
Yeah right, come on
You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
You smelt like roses I smelt like smoke
You held me close and you felt my hope
You'd hide the bottle and you'd melt my rope
But now your gone, off to hell I go
Off to hell I go
Off to hell I go