In a flat going back and forth like racket ball
Fuck a dream all they ever chasin' is packs of raw
I saw a baggy in her cupboard - what was that all for?
Questioning myself like i don't even know my self no more
Holding up my head - I feel like sinking but that's overboard
Still living off these rations - I feel like Im bout' to go to war
Everybody keep lying to my face but they never show remorse
I doubt myself with everything I try coz i get low support
Think of all that wasted time I barely coped at all
She said that she'd be round at 5 - I still don't know the score
She's playing games - I put up walls around me I don't throw the ball
I'm keeping to myself coz theres no one with me when i go to court
Cats will say they got your back but the fact is that's mostly talk
Drugs the only thing they phone me for so I get low patients
Homies hand me benzo's and I swear they know I don't take em
How'd i get this low down - Im feeling like i won't make it
Bones aching- I can feel my hands and legs are both shaking
Scratching like a fiend with a note and some coke waiting
Theres no way they wanna know my thoughts before I go to sleep
Im looking for some help that I won't find coz I bin low for weeks
I spoke to people - even doctors said that there's no hope for me
Im over this I feel like I can't focus like a hopeless fiend
Said Im over this - I feel like I can't focus like a hopeless fiend
There's gotta be a reason it turned out like this
Only got me and myself to blame
Treating everybody like a piece of shit
I hate that Im stuck in my selfish ways
Stuck at the bottom with no help to chase
No bucks in my pocket and no funds to pay
Looking like I need to eat a hundred steaks
Im underweight from drugs I take and can't numb the pain
Everyone around me looking at me like Im not the same
But half those cats are off their face from rock and cane
Options change and everybody got a bone to pick - I know their ways
I don't think ill ever get a sober day
Thats fucked up- I need to learn how to cope with pain
This path that I took is a hard road to take
I put that on myself- I got no one to blame
Naahhh - Theres no one to blame but myself
I don't even know what I could say for some help
I swear that Im breaking inside from the pain that I felt
Take my advice- you don't wanna live a life like this
I bin taken them L's
Day after day I don't see nothin else