Let's get it together I was in a dark place so I wrote a song, it really helped I made a choice Lost the love of my life in a day Everyone keeps telling me that Imma be ok I just want her back I just want the pain to fade away I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live with my mistake My apology, this is everything I wanna say Admitting I was wrong, I'm human, but I know that I can change She's not coming back I just want the pain to fade away I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live with my mistake I wish I could go back to that day and make it different I told you I would make it right you said there ain't no fixing it I'm trying everything in hopes of mending the relationship But I'm so fuckin lost, just tell me what to do, I'm listening I made my last attempt, something I said it made you call me It gave me some hope, I swear so many nights I lost sleep I deserve to pay the price, words killing me softly Wanna kiss you on your forehead, and tell you that I'm sorry Every day I'm waiting for a text that says you're coming back Pushed you away, and I'll spend the rest of my life regretting that Baby it's cold outside from the wind-chill I'm still checking for a love note on my windshield I'm lookin at the flowers that I bought you, they all dead now I never light the candles, and the candy prolly stale now The picture I put on the television, favorite memory How I made you smile is how I want you to remember me I made a choice Lost the love of my life in a day Everyone keeps telling me that Imma be ok I just want her back I just want the pain to fade away I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live with my mistake My apology, this is everything I wanna say Admitting I was wrong, I'm human, but I know that I can change She's not coming back I just want the pain to fade away I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live with my mistake People ask me how I'm doing, I start breaking down Alcohol is my remedy, shit I can't fall asleep without Finding ways to ease the pain, only one really knocks me out Trynna keep my head above water, feel like I'm drowning now Don't mean to degrade, but depression is a bitch And all that medication ain't working worth a shit Maybe this is why I push the ones I love away Yeah I'm crying while I'm working, my boss tells me "take a break" Shay gives me a hug and tells me "it's gon be ok" Dalton's checking on me, Allen asked "you need a place stay?" The people reaching out are ones that I appreciate I love this girl to death, and someone told me love reciprocates That may not be the case, doesn't wanna see my face I'm living with regret, from a choice I can't erase She doesn't love me anymore, that's hard for me to take There's nothing left to say, all I can do is wait