I'mma mess
Don't know how to clean me up
Someone take my pain away
Wish it was that simple, but
I know I won't find escape
I know there's no saving us
The break-up still affecting me and how I live is dangerous
I don't want the sympathy I'll lie to y'all and say I'm fine
Darker days ahead of me I can't heal this heart of mine
Feeling lost my mind is scattered try my hardest not to cry
How can I get better when my better half feels dead inside
Didn't want her gone so we'll be friends again we worked it out
How can I be friends with someone I still feel the same about
I'll bury my feelings if that means I never see me drown
That way I might be an option if she ever comes around
She wasn't toxic she's exhausted she's been traumatized
15 shots in my new glock only 1 feels right
We didn't work out
Doesn't mean I don't care look at me I'm still here
Don't wanna live a life with animosity or live a life in fear
I've blamed myself tried to blame you
But it didn't get me anywhere
Lotta mistakes were made wanna burn the page
But the flame is no longer there
We let it die both of us tried
Now we sleep alone but can't sleep at night nothing fine about it I understand
I hurt you like every other man
Was impatient couldn't comprehend
What you went thru, what the trauma did
You opened up to me in confidence
I was too selfish never gave a shit
Wanna go back to being numb to everything
I was numb when you found me
I had emptiness you filled the void
That's why it's hard for me to find peace
You want me gone I don't wanna leave
Want you in my life be a friend to me
Don't make sense to be enemies
Good conversation is comforting
If you ever need me hit my line and you know I'll be on my way
It could all be simple put the past behind us easier to say
Wake me up when you get home you hate me but I wanna know you're safe
I prefer to text you so you never see expressions on my face
She wasn't toxic she's exhausted she's been traumatized
15 shots in my new glock only 1 feels right
She wasn't toxic she's exhausted she's been traumatized
15 shots in my new glock only 1 feels right