Spend an hour in the spotlight
Think I'm gonna be here all night
I can't even get the words out
Can you say I'm doing alright
Can I stop this heavy breathing
I look straight up at the ceiling
All their eyes are looking at me
Wake up in the bed I wake up in every morning
See a pile growing with the garbage in the corner
Light is slowly leaking from behind the stupid blinders
If this is a show then why is nobody recording
If this is a story why is nothing ever changing
If I was a captive then my bedroom is my caging
I just need a taste of something outside my confinement
I get out of bed but I go back and now I'm staying
Something's fucked up in me
I stay inside and I sleep
When I want to talk to anyone
Something tugs at my feet
I don't want to be alive
But I'm just too scared to die
So I'm stuck in this mundanity
For the rest of my life
And now I'm glad that my ceiling light is broken, I can stare right at it
Every time I step outside the house I start to panic
I shut the door and lock it up I shroud myself in shadow
These four walls trap me
These four walls haunt me
Is there description for this fear is there a definition
Was I this way when I was younger, when we were still children
Was there ever truly freedom or was it delusion
These four walls hold me
These four walls are me
All those socially compromised ugly emotions
All those bipolar condolences dividing my soul
Stay with me
Can't you see
I'm where I wanted to be
In this room
Darkness looms
I embrace the coming doom
I chose this life
I hold this light
As I wake through this endless night
The door is locked
Nobody knocks
I sit and stare, I'll never stop
I'll never leave this prison
Cell of pain and tunnel vision
Keep me far from anyone 'cause I keep making bad decisions
Keep me in this loop forever
Keep me in this room forever
Keep me in this loop forever
Keep me in this room forever
The silence in my empty head
Understand your unreachable feelings
My lost days, lost balances
Despise me in the dark room
And now I'm glad that my ceiling light is broken, I can stare right at it
Every time I step outside the house I start to panic
I shut the door and lock it up I shroud myself in shadow
These four walls trap me
These four walls haunt me
Is there description for this fear is there a definition
Was I this way when I was younger, when we were still children
Was there ever truly freedom or was it delusion
These four walls hold me
These four walls are me
My four walls
My four walls
(Four walls surrounding me)