I'm aching
I feel my body fall apart
Make my walls collapse
I'm crawling back
To somewhere I can start
Wish they would talk to me
I feel them watching me
It's almost constantly
It's hard to fall asleep
Wake up and walk between
Hate me and want to be
I can't keep promising
That this is all I'll be
I feel dead
Till they tell me that they love me
I feel better
Every day I'm losing friends
I can barely even walk on my own legs
Like I'm floating
Or maybe falling instead
But I'm not
It's not that bad
I start feeling lost
I'll hold your hand
Haven't smiled since December
It might be like this forevеr
Yeah it's aching
Body shaking
I can't fake it
The convеrsations
Got no patience
I can't take it
The violations
Vile cadence
I am faded
The constellations
Got me jaded
I've gone manic
With life on my back it's just got me in panic
All of my friends they just went in and vanished
And I always felt like a monster that's banished
And all of my life I just felt like a menace
All of my time has been wasted again
Trying to keep all my friends in my head
But I rather have no one there and depressed
Cuz all of these people they used me and left
I want a chance just to be by myself
Cuz all of you fakes want to drain all my health
And I have been trying to fix how I felt
But all of this time and you wasted in hell
Wish they would talk to me
I feel them watching me
It's almost constantly
It's hard to fall asleep
Wake up and walk between
Hate me and want to be
I can't keep promising
That this is all I'll be