These last few months in these thin walls
Blood spilt with words
I've been through it all
And I grow tired day by day
Watching all my "friends" leave me
Wish they'd just stayed
Don't know who I am anymore
I just don't wanna be ignored
Sick of it all
Cause I've changed for y'all for far too long
And all your lies roll off your tongue
I'm done just being what you want
It's clear that I do not belong
I could change the way I look
I could switch the way I talk
But everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me
I just try again and again
So I can feel like I fit in
But everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me
Making the same mistakes
These problems, I create
Ingrained inside my brain
Falling back to my old ways
I'm tired, don't wanna let myself go any further
Cause everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me
My memory's faded and I've lost who I am
This piece I've painted, fragments of what was then
Let's leave it in the past
Let it decay to ash
Let it just falter away
Feel like my whole life, I've been erased
Always made me feel like I'm a waste
Wishing I could never ever wake
People switching up on me, it's hard to say
But I don't really feel a thing but apathy
Yeah every part of me is numb to pain
Everyday is just a cycle of my misery
And I hate it
Cause it's always my fault and I'm always the cause of my fall
I could change the way I look
I could switch the way I talk
But everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me
I just try again and again
So I can feel like I fit in
But everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me
Making the same mistakes
These problems, I create
Ingrained inside my brain
Falling back to my old ways
I'm tired, don't wanna let myself go any further
Cause everything I do is not enough
Cause I'm still the same old me