When I was a little kid my dad would never let me grow my hair out
I always wanted long hair but he said
"No, no son of mine's leaving the house lookin' like no girl"
Now I'm 24 years old and I got B-cups
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I can remember back in 2015 when I first started presenting as female
Some kid on my community college campus came up to me and he said
"Yo, can I ask why you're dressed like that?"
And I said "Oh, yeah, I make electronic music"
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One time when I was about 4 years old
My dad was trying to get me to eat rice for the first time
I didn't like the way it felt in my mouth
And I gagged, and I regurgitated it
And then he got so pissed, he fuckin' yelled at me
And he fuckin' made me eat that shit a second time
He made me eat my own fuckin vomit
Shit was fucked up
Years later my garbage disposal broke in my house
And I went downstairs to help my roommates fix it
And there was just mushy fucking globs of rice all over the floor
And suddenly I started feeling like I was in severe danger
And I was like "What the fuck is happening to me?"
And then it dawned on me
That I'm fuckin' traumatized
And soggy rice is my trigger