I was kind of a weird kid The kind who writes in sharpie on her arms And my hair in front of my face Was hiding the eyeliner I was so bad at applying And I would miss a period To go out and practice with my band We never settled on a name We never wrote a song But we'd put on our favorite records, and play along And if you know what you want then Don't let anyone tell you you can't Cause they only tell you to follow your dreams When they line up with the ones they have for you And this is all I've ever wanted Stage left guitar and an amp And I knew the only way to get it Was to never have a back up plan So I dropped out of college It was never for me anyway I'm still chasing the same dumb dream I was chasing when I was fifteen I wanna be an emo heart lover I wanna play a show every night Cause I still believe that teenage angst is enough to build a life And I'll never be a mother, I'll never be a wife But I still believe that this Grrrl Angst is enough to build a life Well I grew up in the suburbs It doesn't matter where they're all the same MCR, The Used, and Taking Back Sunday, Were the soundtrack to my boredom and pain I fell in love every day And got my heart broken by the end of the week And all those years I hated myself I wouldn't trade them for anything You can talk shit if you want to But let me tell you what I know of that scene It was the only place that this queer kid could ever find a community The first time I wore makeup I was twelve or thirteen And the first time that I put on black Skinny jeans there was no going back for me And then I started playing music And suddenly everything changed I started chasing the same dumb dream I'm chasing now at twenty-three I wanna be an emo heart lover I wanna play a show every night Cause I still believe that teenage angst is enough to build a life And I'll never be a mother, I'll never be a wife But I still believe that this Grrrl Angst is enough to build a life I never (I never) Had a backup plan (Had a backup plan) I never (I never) Had a backup plan (Had a backup plan) I never (I never) Had a back up plan (Had a backup plan) This is all I've ever wanted and this is who I am