Like all great things, it starts with an ending The door slams shut and you fall in love again I'm sicker than I've ever been And I don't know when it's gonna stop I'm crying in my car Parked outside the dog park I don't know if I can make it If I don't make it To Allston for lunch, tell Jeff I'm sorry I didn't mean it, something came up In the sweet heat of a dead or dying summer I'm night-swimming down methadone mile And ugly crying, I'm trying to call you a ride Before my phone dies, this is the last time Later on beneath the unlit sign Outside the S-Mart Our stressed out highs collide and separate us But before you can dive into the shallow black water of my heart Stomach pangs pull us apart It's coming at me, like a car in the night I live and die In the headlights I go down sometimes, but they still pay me, baby I'm graceful when I'm falling, everyone applauding Come back to life Before my telephone rings In the desert, I swore that I was born again Not in a church, but under neon heaven You made it hard to have grace Day after day, from the clinic to the grave