You've never been the one to blame
(You've never been the one to blame)
That one to know that I'm at fault
But never take it out on me
If the two of us were both the same
I wouldn't know where I need to be
You're the bigger picture I can't see
This one goes out to You
Solitude, at least that's what I call it
Keeping those streets of gold on my mind
I don't know why, as the years they pass me by
It gets harder just to take my time
No one to keep me from You
No one to stay my hand from seeking the truth
From reaching up for the only hope I ever knew
For every time I wasn't honest, kind, or true
I used to think I was lucky, but I've realized now I'm just blessed that I found some sort of home in a heart even though I lived so long in selfishness.
Because I've learned you know my heart more than you know my routine
And most nights it's all I need to be able to fall asleep.
Because I've learned running away from home is like finding strength in weakness, but I always come back around knowing that I can't continue to live like this.
So thank you for your honesty,
I've found that love has gone from just being sobering to being so refreshing.
And even if pain doesn't go away, I just thank God you decided to stay.
Because I know I have purpose when you purposefully tell me you that see something in me, even when I can't see myself.
If this hasn't been waiting in vain, I could consider this monogamy
Living devoted and betrothed to the One
Who believed in me and wouldn't give up
If the clock looks like it ticks too slow
Even when its given time to grow
I'll know for sure that it was my own impatience
That I'd feel better if my ego was vacant
In closing, I'd like to thank You for her
For every word she spoke to help me rest assured
That I'm not lonely, that I'm not falling away
For every time she reminds me of You and lives up to her name
Thank you for everything, thank you for having patience with me
Thank you for reminding me that God is all that I will ever need
Thank you for praying for me, thank you for giving me room to breathe
Thank you for letting me see who I am and who I want to be