All my time spent chasing distractions Please don't leave me alone with my thoughts Desperate for human interactions Deflect the pain of life the pain of loss I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am My lonely behaviour undignified I get scared of the nothing when I look inside The world seems too vicious when I think of conditions Incapable of inhibitions Myself included with grounded expectations What use is reason when we lose it with our patience I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am My lonely behaviour undignified I get scared of the nothing when I look inside Oh my rarer find I don't like where my thoughts go where there's just me on my mind Oh my troubled cure I've also thought of the feeling of choking on your own sick before