The choice between attack or to apologize I find contrived white lies so no more anger will arise This harmony isn't mutual but maybe I am condescending Allowing qualms that cause alarm to all remain unmentioned I try and calm you down and I just coax you into smoking So you can share my numbness and assume I'm only joking When I sass you with a smile, I see you didn't notice The quiver in my voice, the fact my bow is broken I had a nosebleed when I woke up then I didn't go to work I find my problems are all first world but still I'm feeling hurt Well seasoned perspective it makes me hate myself I can complain of my sadness but I have more than someone else Am I just a spoiled brat who taught themselves how to cry, Who's so preconditioned now all their emotions are a lie? I close my eyes and look inside, no surprise I find nothing It's people who shape each other and people are disgusting 'At least' isn't helping 'At least' isn't helping