There will be no soft sounds this time
No arms, not mine at least
Should've expected this, I guess
No "shh" can sooth your beast
And it was my problem once
That violence inside your eyes
Bright red and high with death and pie
And rage that never dies
And I used to blame myself
Then I blamed everybody else, but never you
'Cause you were just a messed up kid
Who'd step in it, get scared and sit
And pray for goats and gods
Who would know what to forbid
And when you would reach out
Well, I'd run my big mean mouth
And make it worse
And maybe I deserve that hurt
Destruction of my universe
So if you've gotta beat somebody up
Don't make it her
I'm sorry, I messed up
I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry, I messed up
I'm not a leader
Not a leader
Not a leader, friend
No more attempts to make you see
I tried, he succeeded, oh well
But what I can say to a girl
Who'd play with a noose of excuses until
Her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke
And crack goes the rope pulled true
I know enough about doubt, and hating myself
To tell that you now know it too
And I used to blame myself
Then I blamed everybody else, including you
But you were perfect as you were
All angled out, a blinding blur
So bright and beautiful
And clever, yeah for sure
But when you would reach out
Well, I'd run my big mean mouth
And make a mess
And now it's my turn to confess
I wasn't there, I didn't guess
That you were slipping
'Til you tripped right off the edge
I'm sorry, I messed up
I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry, I messed up
I'm not a leader
Not a leader
Not a leader
(I'm not a leader anymore, no more)
Said a thousand words but they never helped
I hid my scars from you out of shame
Took up the cause, yeah I took the helm
But I'm not the only one who's changed
I knew you first, I knew you best
I wish I'd stopped it way back then
When things were bad, but they still made sense
When we were kids, when we were friends
Friendleaders
Friendleaders
Friendleaders
Friendleaders