Worth
It's something you can earn
It's something like belonging
But nothing like belonging to
And love
Is wanting to protect
To fight until you're wrecked
And coming back, reformed, reborn, and stronger too
And It's not easy
It hasn't been easy
It's not getting easier
To go on without you
Hate
And guilt and grief and rage
I tried, but couldn't save you
From what you were searching for
Those things
I couldn't understand
You smiled and held my hand
And that's the touch I'm hurting for
And it's not easy
It hasn't been easy
Nothing's been easy
And I'm full of doubt too
And it's not for me
This world you adored
I am trapped on these shores
Without you
I would've followed where you led
If I could bleed, I would've bled
If I could give myself instead
If I could give you what he gave you
Anything to save you
Anything to keep your curiosity at bay
Anything to have you and to hold you
If I could I would have told you
Anything, anyone but him
And it's no surprise I love him
How couldn't I? I see you in his eyes
In his wisdom, and his kindness
And the way he's always right
And it's not easy to realize
It's getting harder all the time
Harder to miss you
And it's not easy, it's true
But nothing was ever easy
With you