I just wanna be alone today Do whatever the fuck I feel like Spend time in my sacred place Kick back and take a load off I'm depressed and I need a break From this character I'm playing I've been a slave in the collective maze And I just can't fake it anymore Why do I pretend when my heart is pulling at me Why do I say yes, I try to make everyone happy Here I go, I'm people pleasing again Why do I abandon my own party A waste of confetti Lab rat in a black mirror Feeling pressure for a paycheck Broke orbit to avoid the fear Crash landed in my brain cells Why do I pretend when my heart is pulling at me Why do I say yes, I try to make everyone happy Here I go, I'm people pleasing again Why do I abandon my own party A waste of confetti Is this where it all dissolves Is this where it all dissolves Dark places illuminating Is this where it all dissolves My heart is levitating Is this where it all Why do I pretend when my heart is pulling at me It doesn't make sense, I try to make the whole world happy Here I go, I'm people pleasing again Why do I abandon my own party A waste of confetti