I hate myself for falling in love with you Now I'm fucked up and your with somebody new So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine So use me even if just for distraction I'd leave me too after all of my actions I'm only a man and I'm learning to live With the fact that I'm valued for what I can give All black fit sipping all black tea Been fucked up but I'm tryna get clean I wanna be in your shoes wanna see what you see Cause I learned to love you I could never love me Man I'm carrying round all the weight of a boulder It seems to get harder the more I grow older I'm calm on the surface but losing composure This shell of a body won't hold any longer I hate myself for falling in love with you Now I'm fucked up and your with somebody new So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine I hate myself for falling in love with you, Now I'm fucked up and your with somebody new So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine