So little has been uplifting me
I cannot take any more
Somethings gone wrong with my history
A fragrance that I never wore
Jealousy will not stop kissing me
She takes over when she likes
I promise that I will get better but
I need something newer in my sights oh
Isolations the name
Overthinking's the game
Yes I know I can change
But I need a new portrait
I need a new frame
Fresh outta options I can't stop it
Got so much weighing in my conscience
I don't know where my head is at
There's parts of me I can't get back oh yeah
If I knew myself any better
I'd be able to keep my head up
I don't know what I'm doing here
Reality is not so clear
Oh yeah
What do I do
What do I choose
The more I play the more I lose
Why Why
Tell me what can I say
What can I do
It's so damn hard
I'm so confused
Not myself on monday
Angry on tuesday
Wednesday is harder
Thursday is useless
Friday is better
Saturday I can be more like myself
But on Sunday I'm frightened
Senses as heightened
But lord knows I'm trying
Not to be defiant
I don't know where my head is at
There's parts of me I can't get back
Yeah I got nerve like a motherfucker
I do not run from my l's
Pray that my ego does not recover
Cuz she don't take them l's too well
Said that I wanna start over
These patterns are getting too old
I wanna feel lucky like clovers
Have conversation with my soul ooh
More things change they're the same
I refuse to be claimed
Emotionally drained
But I need a new mantra
New rules to obey
Fresh outta options I can't stop it
Got so much weighing in my conscience
Doesn't really matter now
I always find a way somehow
To be okay
If I knew myself any better I'd be able to keep my head up
Don't know where my head is at
There's parts of me I can't get back
Oh
Why why why