I'm so scared of getting what I want
I'm so scared of seeing where it leads
I'm so scared of getting what I want
Scared that it's not really what I need
I've been in a three day funk
Under the summer sun, watchin' the palm trees sway
My mom was asking how I was, but she means
"How is stuff?" And it's all going great
And I'm on the rooftop, I'm not gonna jump
I was joking, today was just too long
I wrote a new song, but it didn't heal
Didn't feel half as real as it used to
I'm so scared of getting what I want
I'm so scared of seeing where it leads
I'm so scared of getting what I want
Scared that it's not really what I need
Well, I've been in a three day funk
Or has it been a month? It's kinda hard to say (hard to say)
I remember 21
Blew all my money on a trip to see L.A. (see L.A.)
Now, I'm at the penthouse, friend of a friend's
So, I guess by extension, we're friends now (by extension, we're friends now)
Ain't it a let down?
All of the years to be here just to feel like I'm left out (feel like I'm left out)
I'm so scared of getting what I want
I'm so scared of seeing where it leads, oh
I'm so scared of getting what I want
Scared that it's not really what I need (scared that it's not really what I need)
And I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck it up
Every night I'm sweating through the sheets, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm so scared of getting what I want
Scared that it's not really what I need
It's not really what I need
It's not really what I need
So, what is it that I need?
So, what is it that I need?