My child's arms were so thin that they looked like sticks
I bet that Jesus Christ would think the crucifix was funny
I wonder if he tells that story at all of his parties
The ones in heaven, that I'll never get to see
Motherfucker
Rain pour down on my face
I taste blood and it tastes good
His casket was open in the ground
He went
"I'll let you suck my soul from my mouth into your heart,
At one point we were two separate bodies,
But now one that will never part"
I can feel the anger that's stuck in the ocean floor from this ship
I can't escape the feeling that I'm drowning deep down in the pit
Love note, that she left in her locker
If I could, I'd make you mine
Carousel lit with color
We're dead but we feel fine
Dark room that is lit by candles
Spirits, can you hear my cry?
Cheetah print bag on her shoulder
My mom died around this time
Last year she was drunk and was angry
Like your mother was too
I remember when she took me on the Ferris wheel
And brought me those balloons
And I remember the way her face looked when she would tell me she needed a drink
Come on mom, come on mom, you don't need a drink, oh!
Rain pour down on my face
I taste blood and it tastes good
His casket was open in the ground
She went, love note that she left in her locker
If I could, I'd make you mine
Carousel lit with color
We're dead but we feel fine
Dark room that is lit by candles
Spirits, can you hear my cry?
Cheetah print bag on her shoulder
My mom died around this time
Last year she was drunk and was angry
Like your mother was too
I remember when she took me on the Ferris wheel
And brought me those balloons
And I remember the way her face looked when she would tell me she needed a drink
Come on mom, come on mom, you don't need a drink, oh!
Love note that she left in her locker
If I could, I would make you mine
Carousel lit with color
We're dead, but we feel fine
Dark room that is lit by candles
Spirits, can you hear my cry
Cheetah print bag on her shoulder
My mom died around this time
[Hey, I wanted to call and say I had that dream again about you and dad again when we used to live on Debbie Drive
I was playing in the backyard with Lou and thinking about that time when Nathaniel climbed this pine tree and fell out and hurt his arm.
I remember Isabella playing with Polly Pockets, and I think about how horrible I was to her
I wish I could go back in time and drive to Blockbuster with mom and take that old road on Granger that deer used to run across when it was foggy out.
I wish we could go fly kites at the Achievement Center and ride our bikes around that lake I thought about drowning myself in
I wish I could mow the yard again and see Lady up at the window barking at nothing and I wish I could hear the doorbell ring when Lang would come over and we would complain about how bored we were
And I wish I wasn't so lost in my life right now.
I can't seem to find peace in all this, but I want to.
I don't know if God is listening, but if he is, I need your help]