21 years that I've been feeling alive I can't ever seem to sleep through the night I think my brain is changing and I don't know why My friends will go out without me but I'll be just fine And I've been feeling like I just can't do it by myself Maybe it's all part of a bigger plan, I'm going crazy Maybe I need to drink some more water this year To stop the pounding migraine between my ears And every day I drink my weight in caffeine Hope that maybe one day I'll feel seen I've been feeling like I just can't do it by myself Maybe it's all part of a bigger plan, I'm going crazy I've been feeling like I just can't do it by myself Maybe it's all part of a bigger plan, I'm going crazy And all my birthdays go up in flames but maybe I'll be someone someday This year I'll be one more older Next year I'll be one more closer